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Powered by LifeTypeGrace has been enjoying walking in the snow and climbing on the plowed parts.
On Wednesday, December 11, 2024, we took her NG tube out on purpose! She had been eating and drinking well, and we trialed no formula for six days. She still gained 0.2 pounds. Now she says, "Me have zero tubes."
And she got to fly with Noah on Thursday.
Next Thursday, she has a regular hem/onc checkup at Dartmouth and an eye exam.
Because he likes to compete with Brandon Sanderson, SD Smith is launching a new Green Ember book today. Our family loves the Green Ember series maybe even more than the Stormlight Archive.
I've mentioned before that the soldiers' oath has special significance to us now that Faith has literally given her blood for Grace and that SD Smith has supported our family with time, prayer, and gifts.
So... Will we hear about the Pilgrim in this first book of Lost Tales? We hope to find out soon!
Sorry we left you hanging about Grace's recent appointments. Here are some things to be thankful for about Grace. She did really well during her audiology appointment. It took a long time, but she followed all the directions and was cooperative as usual. She does still have some hearing loss in the right ear. It's the kind of loss that's associated with fluid or congestion, which is why the Boston audiologist wasn't concerned because she had just gotten over COVID then (in January.) This audiologist also wasn't concerned because to her that means temporary loss. But I pushed her because Grace has not had any congestion or a cold in a while. So she referred us to an ENT to check out the ear. We have not made that appointment yet.
The next day, Jon took her back up to Dartmouth for her followup leg xray. The orthopedist was very happy with the healing. Jon was concerned because he could see a buildup of bone in the broken spot, but the doctor said that will go away with time. She also said that you could see the growth "rings" (like a tree!) and if you measured precisely, would be able to tell the dates of when she stopped growing. She was assuming that would be chemo dates, but we know she stopped/slowed her growth much earlier because of the leukemia. We are hoping she will do some catch up growing, but three years old is when the growth curve starts leveling off. The orthopedist figured Grace would also level off and just be short her whole life. So we will see.
Jon also talked to the nutritionist that day and got some guidelines for moving towards getting the NG tube out. Grace had her last dose of cyclosporine last Tuesday! So now the only thing she gets through the NG tube is formula, and some water to flush the tube when the bottle is finished. We reduced her feeds to one bottle a day a few days ago. We aren't counting the calories she is consuming by mouth, but it looks good so far. And the nutritionist said that as long as Grace is not below 11kg by February, she'll be happy. So we have a couple of kilograms of leeway as we reduce her formula and get her to eat all by mouth.
Grace easily (with gentle reminders) drinks her 600mL of liquids in the day. So we really have only been giving water in her tube to flush the formula. She tolerates a nice high rate from her pump, so her one bottle is done in just under two hours. So that means she is backpack-free for most of the day! Soon she will be tube-free, and that will be quite the day of rejoicing! We are anticipating that to happen before Christmas.
And we're trialing introducing dairy again. She is now having baked in dairy - brownies, rolls, that kind of thing.
She still has one more medicine to take, an antibiotic to replace one that she used to get in her central line once a month. This one is oral at my insistence. I decided that we would not even give her the option of putting it in the tube. It looks exactly like bright lemon-yellow acrylic paint, texture and all. She says it "tastes bad" but she swallows it like a champ every morning, quickly followed by some water, almond milk, and whatever breakfast food she's eating. (The first week or so, I gave her a candy corn chaser, but now she's satisfied with whatever's in front of her.)
All her bone marrow results came back good - her marrow and blood are still all Faith's, praise the Lord! And we have not seen any sign of GVHD even as her medicines are off.
As the one-year anniversary of her diagnosis approaches, I am doing a lot of remembering. We have so much to be thankful for. We had Daley Thanksgiving on Saturday, and we all remembered the previous year's event when Grace was only allowed her colonoscopy cleanout prep and clear liquids while the rest of us feasted. During church yesterday I was thinking how at this time last year, after her colonoscopy, Grace was pale, anemic, tired, with a distended belly and concerning output. In my memory, I can fast forward to now. (The day in and day out of living the last year was anything but fast. But it really does work to put one foot in front of the other and eventually get somewhere.) Now Grace is so vivacious, happy, pain-free and VICTORIOUS! I am so thankful for the healing transformation of this precious little girl. I'm thankful again and again for God's grace to sustain us and for God's people to be his hands and mouths to support us in the whelming flood.
Swimming!!
Shopping without wearing a mask. She wanted to hug the bananas. (:
Look at that hair!
Thinking of how God has healed the physical as we step through life one day at a time, we also need to persevere in the emotional/mental healing. I do see improvements in our family and individual wellbeing, but there is still more healing needed. There are fewer bad days, but they do still come. We are going to a friend's condo in the White Mountains for a family retreat this week. Please pray that it will be a blessing to our relationships.
On Christ the solid Rock we stand!
May God bless you all this week and I hope you can find plenty to be thankful for, whether your country celebrates it officially or not.
Last weekend, Heather took all of the girls on a retreat and had a lot of fun together. Those of us at home had a work day at Grammy's and another friend's house and then had a really great day at home with a friend from church. Elbereth, Jonathan's snake, was out and various people were holding her and then she was resting on the olympic rings in the kids' bedroom. Apparently, when we dispersed, no one remembered about Elbereth and so at some point, she must have gotten tired of hanging on and dropped to the floor (probably a four foot drop), and then looked for a nice dark place to hide, which was in Nathaniel's bed! We didn't notice until today, two days later, because she often hides in her wood shavings, so no one thought much of not seeing her, but Jonathan went to clean the cage and found she was gone.
Faith found Elbereth at the foot of Nathaniel's bed, and Jonathan discovered that she had wedged herself in between the bunk bed and the wall and was unable to go further forward, and snakes aren't capable of going backwards, so she was completely stuck.
We used a crowbar to move the bunk bed (6 beds all connected to each other) a little bit so Jonathan could extract her. She appears to be fine and none the worse for wear.
The appointment with the NF1 doctor went well. One of her oncology doctors was also there, the one who works closely in the NF1 world. Jon didn't remember meeting the NF1 doctor, but it was right at the very beginning, during Grace's first hospital stay, when she was diagnosed. So, much to be thankful for from that visit. They are sure that her fracture is from steriod weakening and not NF1. The kind of bone issues that NF1 causes is not evident in her, and it would be by now. Several other NF1 symptoms are also ruled out for the same reason.
But there is still the possibility of developing brain tumors. This is why she is scheduled for eye exams every six months for the rest of her life. They are working on a trial of oral chemo that looks promising. Because there is no sign of brain/retinal tumor in Grace now, that study will be finished before she would even need it. And we pray that she never will! I think they said she'll get a brain scan every year, but they did not do one this time. She had an eye exam in June and will have one next month. And they asked about her cognitive development. The tumors really affect that, so we are reassured by her development there. Jon asked me to look up milestones for three-year-olds and the only things she is behind in are some gross motor skills like jumping/hopping and riding a tricycle. (She tried riding a tricycle the other day, and her legs did not reach the pedals!) I had already planned on taking her to the playground more often, but that now has to wait while her leg finishes helaing. That is on the mend, she does not limp much at all anymore. She still has some flareups occasionally, but the curve is dampening.
Jon and Grace are off to Boston for her bone marrow aspirate. He just spent all day yesterday at the polls, literally, from 6:30am-11pm. And they had to leave at 5:45 this morning. Prayers for alertness while driving. Bless her marrow that it's 100% Faith's. Bless the procedure and anesthesia. Bless our little Amazing Grapey Grace.
Fun quotes from the last weeks:
9/7/24 - Nothing like older brothers to help you develop cognition. When she was in an "answer everything with 'no'" mood: "Grace, are you dumb?" "No" "Are you not dumb?" "Not dumb."
9/11/24 - "Mommy, all done eat my eggs. Please wash it, my fork."
9/11/24 - "Hope 'wake now. Not sleeping."
10/26/24 - Nathaniel and I were talking about when Grace can shower and bathe now that her central line is out. Grace then exclaimed, "Swim! Me swim! Maggie P! You come. Hope come."
Monday, 11/4/24: The kids were doing a survey for fun. "What's your first name?" "Grace" "What's your middle initial?" [they helped her say 'Victoria' and that it starts with V] "What's your full name?" "Amazing Grapey Grace!!"
Line removal surgery was successful. She did great for the IV.
She came out of anesthesia quickly and they were home by 4:30. It is strange to her to have her line out. But next week she'll be able to have her first bath in a year! She is excited about that.
After she got home, Grace opened her birthday joy jar.
Grace has had a fun birthday overall, with balloons and presents and blowing out the candles.
But tonight, during her line flush, the white side busted a hole through, up above the clamp, near the Y . We did our best with a paper clip clamp, but Jon took Grace to the fire station to put on an umbilical cord clamp.
That worked nicely, but her doctors want her on antibiotics right away in case it got contaminated. So Jon and Grace are headed to Dartmouth now (10pm.) They will also be taking the whole line out either tonight or tomorrow morning. That exciting milestone was scheduled for two weeks from now, but she gets it early for her birthday.
Please pray for safe travel and no infections and a successful procedure.
Grace woke up Friday morning wanting to eat and drink, and she has kept everything down. There is a cold running around our house, which I thought she was getting last night, but she seems ok this morning. However, she did wake up with her nose tube pulled out again. So we are trying out the day to see how much she can eat and drink without it. She took her morning meds like a champ. In addition, she has some itchiness on her trunk that may be weather related or may be gvhd related. We have cortisone cream for that and the doctors are keeping an eye on it.
Next week is Grace's third birthday, for which we are exceptionally grateful.
I know that there are a lot of people out there who love Grace and would probably like to do something for her birthday. She has all the physical things she could need or want, so prayers would be the number one birthday present we can ask for. For those who feel led to provide something physical, I thought I'd share a list of organizations that have helped us and Grace through this last year or so. People have been so generous to us. Most of these organizations provide their services to cancer kids and their families for free.
On Belay organizes physical activities that are free for kids impacted by a loved one's cancer. Our kids have gone indoor climbing, ropes course climbing, kayaking, horseback riding, surfing, mountain biking, camping, and hiking. They always have fun and they appreciate the usually unspoken camraderie with kids in similar hard situations. on-belay.org
NEGU Never Ever Give Up. This organization was founded by a girl who had a terminal brain tumor. She wanted to spread joy to her fellows and give a Joy Jar full of goodies to every child diagnosed with cancer. The organization has now grown so that they give Joy Jar subscriptions to the children and their families. Every month, Grace gets a jar with a book, crayons, coloring book, stuffed animal, and other toys. She loves her Joy Jars and is so excited when a new one comes. They also have given us all tshirts, a beach towel, a blanket, a popcorn bowl with popcorn, and numerous other goodies. One month, they included the book Jessie's dad wrote about her life, which was powerful. I certainly cried hard, but it has such a hopeful theme even while dealing with all the hard questions of life, death, and terminal illness in a child. negu.org
David's House I have written about before and our t-shirt fundraiser goes to them. (Update on that coming soon!) We stayed there during Grace's first hospitalization at Dartmouth and for part of her second round of initial chemo. https://davids-house.org/
Luke's fastbreaks: Luke is a childhood cancer survivor. He didn't like how demeaning it was to wear hospital gowns, and so he designed special hospital shirts for pediatric cancer patients. They come in a variety of bright colors with fun designs, and they snap completely apart. You can mix and match fronts and backs if you want, but the really wonderful thing about the snaps is that you can change your shirt even when you have to be connected to a pole for days on end. These were a staple during Grace's Boston hospitalization. https://lukesfastbreaks.org/
1 mission provides the fun on the children's cancer floor. Activities, holiday celebrations, prizes, caregiver meals. They keep the resource room stocked with information and snacks. onemission.org
Childhood Cancer Lifeline, founded in our town by local people. They provide support and love. Grace got a bag of goodies, and we have gotten several gas cards. They also have a summer camp that we were unable to go to because we already have our summers booked full. https://childhoodcancerlifeline.org/
SD Smith, author of the inspiring Green Ember series. When I told him that "My place beside you, my blood for yours..." has new meaning for Faith, Grace, and our family, he set up a live meeting with us and sent us a box of Green Ember goodies. https://sdsmith.com/
Hospitality Homes, provided a lovely apartment in Boston, within walking distance of the hospital, for a significantly reduced rate. https://hosp.org/
CHaD https://childrens.dartmouth-health.org/donate
Boston Children's https://www.childrenshospital.org/
Dana Farber Cancer Institute - their resource room linked us to many of the above. https://www.dana-farber.org/
Please pray for Grace as she has some sort of sickness. Last night, she threw up a lot. She is resting now. She has not had a fever. (Two of the other kids have regular ol' colds.)
I had to go calculate the day since we no longer count the days like that any more - it has been great to have less medical stuff going on these days, and we get more comments about her being "so cute" in the grocery stores and the soccer games, etc.
Her hair is growing in, and I don't think I've heard her referred to as a boy in a while (for a while she just looked like she had a really short haircut, but it is growing out more). She discovered the 18 month clothes bin in the attic the other day and has been wearing some onesies, since she mostly still fits into them. She'll turn three next month.
We continue to do weekly dressing changes - we had a full day yesterday and so she fell asleep during the change - it is hard to imagine kids screaming through it, but we are certainly blessed to not have that problem. She happily puts on her mask and then holds her hands above her head until it is done.
Faith's soccer team is having a leukemia awareness game in honor of her and Grace and our family.
September 11, 2024 4:00pm
Hillsboro-Deering High School soccer field
It would be great to see any of you who can come!
So sorry I left you hanging. Grace and I went back to Dartmouth the next Friday. They did her bloodwork and the creatinine was just fine, so they were reassured and sent us home without further testing. She has been doing well.
Faith has had two soccer games now, and is also doing well. Thank you for your continued prayers!
Jon and Grace just got back from a very long clinic visit at Darmouth. Jon did not have time to tell me much, since he had to catch up on work.
Grace's creatinine level was high, so they are concerned about her kidney function. They double-checked that number and it was still high. As far as I can see from the lab results, the other related numbers look fine. Grace is scheduled to go in on Friday for a kidney ultrasound.
In the realm of good news, Faith is improving steadily and has been able to participate in soccer.
Hopefully, more detailed updates soon.